One blog post won’t fill in everything about the special bond that we share. Such is our bond! The constant ups and downs have not only taught me a great lesson but also moulded me into a stronger individual. When I was young I had big dreams in my eyes.
I had plans of settling in Europe and dreamt of starting my own business. Maybe you had other plans for me that I fail to recognise. My dreams got crumbled and eventually I found myself like a fish floundering on the floor. That’s a great pain. You have been like an entwined headphone to me. Almost half of the time, I have only wasted all my time making it straight. It has been a painful journey throughout. There has been no trace of joy but yes I saw happiness for a brief period of time in form of some people. You sent me people in form of friends , few of whom were true to me and my friendship and the others who backstabbed me and changed with time. That phase, between 2006 to 2012 , can never be forgotten. That was when you tested me! It’s funny that at this moment of time, all the dark thoughts surface in front of my eyes one by one as I type this blog post. Quite evident how disastrous my life had turned into!
It’s okay to be sad but let not sadness alone take you down. Sorrow is a strong emotion that holds an important area of the human brain, even more stronger than happiness. I cheer myself when sad thoughts embrace me. Music is my saviour. Though most of the time, I feel like stranded alone on a deserted island, I would like to say that life got shipwrecked. At a time, when I was recovering from a nuclear bomb bombarded on my life by Almighty, I soon saw him dropping another bomb. This was even more, stronger and powerful than the previous one that impacted not only me but also my kith and kins. I see darkness all around. They say if you smile, your melancholy would eventually fade away. But I would snap saying, how can you even smile when you are in darkness and got no hopes from life? Every time I step out of the home, I look skywards and ask Almighty, ” Will you again paint my life with beautiful colours?”
At a time, when youngsters fly around with their wings in pursuit of their goals, I realised that my wings were cropped. With cropped wings, how could one fly so high? It was then I attached wings and flew in search of my dreams. Dreams are the most difficult things to materialise. To fulfil your dreams, you need constant efforts, support and motivation. In most people’s life, there are people in form of best friends, parents, siblings, who assume the role of motivator. But in my story, I am the writer, actor, director and storyteller. I am the custodian of my own dreams and playing the role of a self-motivator is phenomenal. During my home away days, I once mentioned that I see skeletons in my closet. I still see them , but they have grown in quantity. I see hope fading.
Behind every dark cloud, there is a silver lining. There indeed is a silver lining. Miracles happen where hope resides. I’m still hopeful , dear Zindagi. Would life change if you flaunt an animated smile ? Nope, but it only makes you better. Smile a mile and kick all your sorrow out of your life. I understand that this post is full of melancholy but I can’t really help, I’m still trying to embrace my life and make the best out of it. Life is what you make it. Though I’m struggling, I am still finding ways to make it better because I am the actor of my movie and I have to make it big.
Life is a picture of a painting I am nowhere near, but one day I will find that and keep it with me. I won’t say smiling erases all your sorrows but it keeps your hope intact. True that, when God shuts all the door when you are in darkness, he keeps one door open. Almost half of us eventually give up after trying hard to spot that opened door. But we fail to realise that it is an invisible door and God has a right time and moment to open it. And after that life will be full of happiness and you will be brimming with joy.
Life comes with terms and conditions that there will be no happiness forever. So learn to embrace life and everything it has to offer you. Embrace sorrow because like I said before it moulds you into a stronger individual.
Aye Zindagi gale laga le,
humne bhitera har ek gham ko
gale se lagaya hai
Aye Zindagi gale laga le
Hum ne bahane se, chup ke jamane se,
Palkon ke parde main ghar bhar lia
tera sahara mil gaya
So dear Zindagi, don’t smirk that you have succeeded the first of the game between you and me. I am going to win the second half of the game and win this! Keep SMILING
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